Well the fact that I was too tired last night to comment on my training at crossfit dewitt speaks of the workout Liz had me do! For such a petite, friendly sweet girl, I didn't expect such a tough training. I left there feeling very alive. And when I felt that way, I wondered, have I really been living life lately, or just coasting and going through the motions?
The more I thought about it, the more it made me think about my beliefs about how my life should be lived. For instance, I feel like I have been fed a constant diet of life advice consisting of:
"Take it easy"
"Don't over do it"
"Stress is really bad for you"
Stuff like that. And have heard that coming from my own mouth as well. No wonder I am left some days feeling like "Is this all there is?" or worse "I have turned into my parents"
I remember feeling a lot more passionate about life when I was younger. And I am certainly not wishing for the emotional roller coaster that was my teens and twenty's. But I feel like at least on a physical level I still crave that ability to be very fit and be able to participate in more extreme forms of exercise than "walking is really good for you". Not that I don't enjoy a lovely walk outdoors, but it just isn't feeding that deeper need to challenge myself. And I think I was deep down feeling like that just wasn't achievable for me, once you are as old as I am (42). Like it was too late. And I certainly have had people close to me in my life more or less telling me that also, that I shouldn't aim so high given my age. (you would think I was 72!)
Its funny how you feel like something is missing, and then sometimes you just hit on it almost on accident. Like the lovely feeling I had Friday after really pushing through a workout. The way trees looked greener and the sky looked bluer. And the primal dinner I cooked on the grill tasted that much better. And the time spent with my family felt just perfect. It was a great day!
I need to convince no one but myself that extreme fitness is more than achievable, it is a perfect goal for me to aim toward. And I think having some training in doing this properly so that I do not have to suffer injury is simply smart, as I really don't want to waste any more time.
I am looking forward to the 30 day challenge and to my MovNat clinic in Toronto next weekend.